My Crazy Faith

Another lesson that's really hard for many of us:  Letting Yourself Be Loved or Forgiven (note: there's a bonus section at the end of this post). Not everyone will face this lesson, but those with broken pasts will know what I’m talking about.    One of the hardest lessons I have had to learn in my spiritual life (and in my earthly life) is to let myself be loved by someone ... by Someone.   I come from a very dysfunctional home.    Three dads by the time I was 8.    And then another dad (after a  very messy  divorce) when I was in my late-20's/early-30’s.    I didn’t grow up with my bio-dad or his family.    I didn’t even really meet them until my teens.    And then after that, I’d see them about once or twice a year, sometimes less.    I never really felt like I belonged to a dad or had a place in my extended families (or that my mom was an emotionally-safe person, so I never went to her for enco...

On Godtube, I just watched this touching testimony from Alexa PenaVega (she's in my favorite Christian movies of all time, Do You Believe? , and one of my favorite TV shows, The Middle ).   I had no clue she had gone through such a tragic loss in her life (in 2024, I think) - the death of her newborn baby.  Heartbreaking! I haven't experienced the same kind of loss she did, but I totally appreciate that she's sharing her story, from a heart full of faith.  May God bless her and use her story to encourage others who've gone through loss, too. [One thing that caught my attention is that she quoted a verse - one verse - and it happened to be one (of about 5) that I had just written down shortly before I watched her video.  Out of all the verses in the Bible, I encounter the same one twice within a couple hours... coincidence?   I know that it's a verse I need... and maybe someone else out there needs it too:  "I will refresh the weary and satisfy th...

Learning to be okay with God’s Time and God’s Way A.k.a.: Learning to Trust (Somewhat of a continuation of #5: Just do your job ) 1 Peter 5:6-7 :   “Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.    Cast all your anxieties on him because he cares for you.” In due time!    Such a scary thought for us.    Such a hard thing to accept and to wait for.    How hard it is to humbly submit our lives to the Lord’s timing and way.    But if we want to have the kind of life He wants for us, then we have to learn to humble ourselves before Him and to wait for Him to lift us up - in His time and in His way. But we're too anxious for that, aren't we?  Too hasty?  Too self-focused?  We  want what we want when we want it.   W e have our own ideas of how and when things should happen.   We  have dreams we want to fulfill, plans we want to succeed, goals we want to a...

James 1:5 : "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." James 1:6-8: "But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.  That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." I don't know why, but something just hit me the other day about these verses that I probably once knew but must have forgotten: They go together! Although it wasn't really conscious, for some reason my mind always seemed to keep them separate and apply them to different things: 1:5 is about asking for wisdom, but 1:6-8 is about any and all prayer requests, as if when we ask for something, we should believe that we will get it and not doubt it.  I mean, I know that "name it and claim it" is wrong, but for some reason, my mind still unconsciously applied...

Finally, another "hardest spiritual lesson" (here's #4: Thankfulness , #3: Praise , #2: Prunings , and #1: Let Go ): 5.    Obediently Doing Your Job and Letting God Do His Okay now, be honest and raise your hand if   you like to lead instead of follow?    To push through with your plans and make things happen?    To set your own rules and goals?  To follow your dreams?  To stand in the spotlight?   Our world values go-getters and leaders - people who succeed, who make the impossible possible, who dream big dreams and make them come true.    It doesn’t put much value on  people who shine the spotlight on someone else, who spend their lives in service to someone else, who work quietly in the background, or who follow and obey what someone else tells them to do .    It doesn’t respect submission, obedience, and following, not nearly as much as it does autonomy, self-reliance, and leading.    And so the wor...