[Reposted from June 2016. Sometimes, just when you think, hope, and pray that things are finally going to start looking up for you, everything gets worse. So much worse. As seen in the last numbered post , I started off 2016 with the word "hope," thinking that maybe it meant the year would be better than the previous ones. And then ... I had the worst summer of my life. A real life-changer, heart-changer. I guess maybe "hope," for me, was the kind in Romans 5:3-5 . It's starts with suffering, which brings perseverance, which creates character, which develops hope. Hope in what exactly? I'm not sure. Maybe just hope that God is always with you, no matter what. Hope that He will work all the good into bad. Hope that you'll make it through one more day . And so here it is - my panic attack. The terrible summer that came after starting off my year with "hope." If you've ever had a panic attack, maybe...
Tony Evans is my all-time favorite pastor. He always gives messages that convict, challenge, and comfort. Find some great sermons on his YouTube channel and be encouraged. There are so many great ones to choose from. You can't go wrong with any video of his. I found him to be the most biblically-accurate preacher (especially as I researched Calvinism and found out how wrong it is), who is also great at helping us practically apply God's truths to life. [Update: I removed the list of sermons I originally had here because most links were broken.]
[ I wrote this post in August of 2015. But I am reposting it because I need to read it again. I guess I need to read it again because life sometimes feels like one big "wrestling with God" match. Wrestling with faith. With life. As I look back on these past several years, I am kinda amazed at how things turn out. Or ... how they don't, I should say. How real and raw and messy life can be sometimes. These next numbered posts are taken from over these last few years, showing the progression of life, of the unexpected, of the "wrestling with God, faith, and life" moments. This one goes up to August 2015, how beaten up I've felt over the years up till then. And then comes the post about the hope I had that 2016 would be better. And then comes 2016 - the worst summer of my life. A life-changer for me. And then, well, I'm not sure yet what I am putting after that. But I'm reposting these because it's fasci...
Are you ready? It's sooner than you think. Make the choice while you can! (See also: Do You Believe? Why Would Anyone Choose Jesus? Choose! Will You Bet Your Soul On It? Songs about the Rapture and Heaven )
I found a lot more names to add to my list of known Calvinists (found in my various "How to Tell if a Church, Pastor, or Website is Calvinist" posts). But instead of adding this huge list to all those posts, I am going to put it here, and I'll just provide a link on those posts to this one. [FYI: I added a note at the bottom of this post on May 5, 2021.] So here it is, a "master list" of known Calvinists to help you be careful and discerning about who you listen to and where you get your theology from. There are plenty more Calvinists out there, but these are just the names that I ran across the most. These are either definite, self-professed Calvinists or "most likely Calvinist," in my estimation. (I haven't heard of most of them, but it's good to know their theology before I do.) After finding these names in various places online, I looked up each person to see if they are Calvinist. If they did not self-identify ...
This is the last half of the post "What's The Best Way To Make People Agree With Your Calvinist Views." But I put it here in its own post so that it's easier to find. These are some links to posts which are against Calvinism, the belief that the Bible teaches God has predetermined from the beginning of time who goes to heaven and who goes to hell. It's no secret from my writing that I strongly disagree with this view. I believe the Bible clearly teaches that God offers us all salvation, that Jesus's death paid for everyone's sins, and that we have to decide if we will accept Him or reject Him. And here is some of what others have to say about Calvinism: (FYI, I haven't read everything in all of these yet and I don't necessarily agree with every point they make, but I needed to link to them before I lost them online. And for the record, I came to my belief about what the Bible says by reading the Bible, not extra-biblical books or articles...
In the post "Getting through the 'broken' times," I said that I had made a CD to listen to when anxiety hits. It has some of my favorite Christian songs on it. Here are as many of the songs as I could find online, plus some extra. Listen to some of them when anxiety threatens you. It really does help to hear godly truths spoken out loud (and to speak them out loud yourself). And personally, I think godly music helps repel evil, giving you some extra spiritual protection when you are most vulnerable. They don't like to hear God being praised and Truth being sung! (FYI: Videos are constantly being removed from online. So if the video is no longer available, type in the name and artist and see if you can find it. I simply can't keep up with replacing links.) From The City Harmonic: Love, Heal Me - The song that inspired the title of one of my blogs, Love, Heal Me - my heart's cry for the past year. Fell Apart - One...
[Reposted from my other blog, from January 2016. This comes shortly after the "Wrestling With God" post, the summer when I found myself utterly discouraged by life, by gardening. When it seemed like one thing after the next just kept going wrong. This was my call to hope again. Update: I mentioned in the last post that my mom is currently trying to drink herself to death. I got a call last night that she was found unconscious at a friend's house after drinking since 10 a.m. that morning and taking a bunch of Librium. They called me last night to tell me that she was in the hospital with a blood alcohol level of 375, unconscious, and not breathing on her own. (A couple days ago, she went in with level of 400.) They had to put tubes in her lungs to keep her alive. It's the fourth time, they said, that the ambulance was called on her in about a week. I tell ya, it seems almost supernatural that she hasn't died yet....
Motherhood: It's not just something to do while you wait for a "real job" to come along. Motherhood IS the job - the job that matters most. Pour your heart into it. Give it your all, your best. "Just a mom" is an incredible privilege and a blessed responsibility. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Y ou might feel like you don't mean much to the world, but you can bet that you mean the world to your children! Make choices that honor their love for you, that show how much you value your children and your role as the only mother they have. I am proud to be a mother!
Happy Easter Weekend! Never forget how much Jesus loves you and what He went through for you, for everyone, so that anyone who believes in Him would be saved (and anyone can!): Sweetly Broken by Jeremy Riddle Oh, What Love by The City Harmonic Secret Ambition by Michael W. Smith Hallelujah Christmas by Cloverton My Jesus by Todd Agnew I Am by Crowder The Champion by Carman (This will always be one of his best!) There are many people who resist God because they doubt He exists: "If God is real, then why doesn't He prove He's real?" Well, He did ... it's called Creation. "Oh, that's just evolution. It's nature," they say. "But if He's really real, why doesn't He send us a clear message, in black-and-white?" He did ... it's called the Bible. "No, no, that was just written by men. An interesting old book, but nothing more. But if He's really, really real, then why doesn't He come down here and sh...